short my ears&short my eyes

this is my feeling for this few days always keep thinking of it , when i know that i gana take over NPCC as a vice-chairwomen and NIC but what i heard from syafiq and sianli is if i take over sec2s they wont come for training and will quit CCA !! they don like me because i strict but if i not like that how i can take over them and train them to be good cadet and to be good NCO in future !! all the thing that i do is for their own good de but they don wan it ... what they ac-pact from me is to let them slack which i not gana let them do that !! if just only this they cannot take it .. NCO course how can they take it !! i don wan them to suffer during NCO course that why i plan to train them now !!! but end up what i get is the word " HATE" ... feel damn stress !! and feel tired but i not gana let it go easily .. I PROMISE!!

today got science & maths common test !!! feel damn stress .. the science paper damn suck!!! i think i will fail =( the teacher think we wad sia ... give us 35 min to do but got so many questions 9 pager for us to do !! i leave 2 questions that never do feel damn regrade ... before the test is science lesson but the teacher never come and reviews for us not like maths teacher .. i can say that the science teacher are SUCK! ... go back JC and teach better la ... i think at JC also don wan him that's why he come NORTHLAND ... =( DIE DIE I GANA DIE !! if he will take me for science till sec4 i think every year i will fail my science !!